![]() It was a celebration, smoke filled the room, everyone was drunk, apart from me, I was a small child. My uncle was blowing smoke rings & I was catching them by poking my finger through them "I'll blow smoke rings when I'm a grown up, this is fun!" The adults had stopped making fun of my shyness, they'd stopped laughing at my body, they'd stopped trying to get me to admit that I fancied my cousin, I didn't even know what that meant anyway. The ordeal upstairs had also stopped. I had been molested by the boys, each taking turns to get into bed with me to touch me. My brother being both the ringleader & the first. This was not a safe situation. I was not cared for. This was an abusive situation, the only reality that I knew. Once I was old enough to take care of myself I removed myself from this abuse, or so I had thought. The truth was I was taking care of myself to the almost the same low levels. At age 47 I was still around alcoholics, I was still being made fun of, I was still being yelled at & put down by people who were pretending to love me, I was still around people who made me feel unsafe, I was still in that smoky atmosphere pretending that I was having fun. It was a shock to wake up to the fact that I was neglecting myself, that I wasn't caring for myself, that I wasn't protecting myself, that I wasn't choosing good situations for myself, still. So I took action, I removed myself from the toxicity. I started to take good care of myself, to be the parent for myself that I wish I had had. The ways in which I find easy to take care of myself, my diet, exercise, they were all ways in which I was taken care of as a child. That has come "naturally" to me as a result of my childhood programming. It's the destructive programming that has to go. Deciding on new boundaries & taking action on them, stepping away from what is not good for me is where I am at. The void. I know that the next step will come naturally when I am ready, when I am re-programmed, the stepping toward what IS good for me. Everyday I'm meditating, I'm exercising, I'm eating healthily, I'm working, I'm reading, I'm going to bed early. I'm focused on the basics, the foundations of good self-care, focused on what I can do positively for myself. I'll let you know when the next step comes along. Are you still caring for yourself in the same way, negative & positive, that you were cared for as a child? Do you need to start to take care of yourself better? ![]() I'm Claire Louise Hay, I help you claim your true power to manifest the life of your dreams through self-awareness and alignment with your higher self. Want to work with me? Click here to find out how!
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![]() This is what my life looks like at this moment in time: I live on a tropical island, I have a business that sustains me that I work on about 2 hours a day about 4 days a week but really that is just a guess because really whenever I want to or feel like working I do, I do only what I love to do helping other people, I have complete creative freedom in my work, I meditate about 3 hours a day, I live in a resort, I have someone else clean my room, do my laundry & cook my food. I walk on the beach, I ride my bicycle around the island, I go to the gym, I swim, I relax at the pool, I learn Thai, I train in Muay Thai, I listen to uplifting podcasts, I eat fresh healthy food, I am the fittest & strongest I have ever been at age 47, I even have abs that show for the first time in my life, I am the least anxious I have ever been, I am clean & sober. I do whatever I feel like every single day of my life. The question people most often ask me is, what is my secret? Firstly, I do not keep any secrets, sharing how I do it is literally the ONLY thing I do, it is the only thing that I have been doing for many years now, in my blogs & in my services. Secondly, there is no silver bullet, there is no magic potion, there is no secret elixir, there is no one thing to focus on, there is no easy route, there is no one little thing that you can do that will suddenly turn your life around. What it takes to live a life beyond your wildest dreams is a constant combination of many things. We are whole beings, we are not just minds, not just bodies, not just spirits, not just emotions, not just anything, we are whole, we encompass many things. We are also not seperate, we are connected to everyone & everything. So what's my secret? How do I get to live this amazing life of ease & plenty? How do I manifest so easily? How do I experience health & fitness beyond most people who are half my age? How do I look so young & vibrant? How did I create my business? How is my life seemingly one adventure after another? How did I do any of it? The answer to all of the questions is the same: I followed my guidance. That's the short answer. The long answer is, a constant combination of the following things: Mindset Positivity Appreciation Feeling my emotions Strong boundaries Self-care Clean diet that suits my body Exercise Belief in myself Belief in unlimited possibilities Daily meditation Daily connecting with my higher self Facing & processing internally challenges that show up in my external life Ownership of everything that manifests in my life Truthfully feeling emotions & using them as guidance for what & who to allow in my life Dreaming big Focusing on creating what hasn't been created before Focusing on what I want Relaxation Putting myself first Self-compassion especially when feeling a range of emotions Self-healing of past trauma when it comes up Saying no to what feels bad Saying yes to what feels good Knowing the difference between fearful feeling bad & truthful feeling bad Constantly evolving beyond my current reality Asking the universe for what I want to experience Being self-aware Being aware of what is showing up for me Being aware of what is showing up in me Knowing my true self more & letting go of any false self I've picked up along the way Set goals every day & reaching for them beyond my comfort zones The popular things that I don't do are: Religion Watch the news Involve myself in other's negative realities Take on other people's fear for me Waste my time being entertained by the television Take on anyone else's limited beliefs about what is possible for me, at my age, etc. Take pharmaceuticals Eat junk/processed food Self-medicate with alcohol or drugs (this is a recent thing for me) Continue to be around energy draining people Seriously that's all I can think of right now & I have probably left plenty out that I do & don't do, but I do these things every day, I am focused on self-awareness every single day of my life, I don't take a day off from it. I take a day off from work, from exercise, from doing, if my guidance (body, mind, soul) tells me to, but that IS self-awareness. I could call it reaching for balance, but it isn't. Balance was my excuse for doing the things that didn't uplift me, that didn't help me, that didn't serve me, like drinking alcohol, eating junk food, laziness,... My guidance sorts out the balance that is required & sometimes it seems very imbalanced, so sometimes I can spend a whole week focused on my emotional wellbeing, or on my business, or on my body, or on a specific life challenge, or focusing on relationships for weeks on end, but it always seems to be what is required to take myself to the next level. It's for this reason that I only work with people 1:1 now. Sure I had programs previously based on common guidance that was given to many people, but what I have found both in myself & in guiding others for many years is that all guidance is individual & in the moment now. The guidance that might "balance" someone up right now, or take them to the next level in this moment, is the very same guidance that could take another out of balance or give them further blocks to what they really want. The guidance that might release your blocks right now is not the same guidance that will take even YOU to the next level in a few months time. It's for this reason that you should always take what resonates with you & reject what doesn't feel right for you. It's for this reason that there is no silver bullet, no magic potion, no secret elixir, no easy route, your path is your path & only you can take it. Sure you can get help & support along the way, but it is all inside of you. You had the power all along my dear. ![]() I'm Claire Louise Hay, I help you claim your true power to manifest the life of your dreams through self-awareness and alignment with your higher self. Want to work with me? Click here to find out how! ![]() In my many years of giving psychic readings, helping my customers to get aligned with what they want in life & manifest it all, one thing comes up over & over again, that is: asking for the wrong things from the universe in the first place. Mary wants to lose weight, so she has an idea that she might exercise. She asks the universe for more air, she knows when she has more air she will be able to exercise. She writes it down in her journal, more air please universe! She affirms it "I have more air!" She tries to find out why she hasn't got more air, she tries to heal it in herself,... She never gets more air. OK, this is a silly example, but it's what people do, over & over again. Everyone knows that you just start exercising & then your body naturally starts to breathe harder & faster, the air is already present in whatever quantity you need. So if Mary had just asked for what she actually wanted, to be slim, then started to exercise, because she had already had the guidance to do that to get to where she wanted to be, she would have naturally attracted more air into her lungs. It was always there available for her, she just needed to do it. Of course people rarely ask for more air, it's usually money that they ask for, thinking that they can only start to ask for what they really want with that money once they have that money, so that they can fulfil their desires themselves & not rely on that pesky universe that demands alignment with what they are asking for! Can you see the problem here? Abundance of anything, air, money, friends, opportunities, apples, yellow butterflies, smiles, customers, ideas, words, thoughts, anything, is ALWAYS available to EVERYBODY. You just have to ask for what you actually want the money FOR & go for that, just start doing it! You just have to ask for what you actually want those friends FOR & just start doing that! You just have to ask for what you want those opportunities FOR & do that! You just have to ask for what you want those apples for & go pick them! You get the picture. Another way that people ask for the wrong thing is that they ask for what they don't want anymore. For example, they might ask for their anxiety to go away, or they might ask for their illness to go away, or they might ask for their depression to be healed. On that face of it this seems like an aware ask, but it won't work. Why do you want your anxiety to go away? What is it that you want a good mental state for? What would you do with that? What is it that you REALLY want? Ask for that! Why do you want your illness to go away? What is it that you want with health & wellbeing? What would you do with that? What is it that you REALLY want? Ask for that! Why do you want your depression to be healed? What is it that you want with a good emotional state? What would you do with that? What is it that you REALLY want? Ask for that! Dream bigger, go deeper, what is it that YOU really want? Share it in the comments below ![]() I'm Claire Louise Hay, I help you claim your true power to manifest the life of your dreams through self-awareness and alignment with your higher self. Want to work with me? Click here to find out how! ![]() "This can't happen again, I won't survive it again!" was my cry to the universe after I had been raped for the 3rd time in my life. I was 36, it had been 18 years since it had last happened, 22 years since it first happened. I thought I was done with that story long ago. I was living a synchronistic life, a business woman, things always worked out magically for me, then Bam! It happened again. I felt broken, but not too broken to recover. This time. It couldn't happen again. I wouldn't survive it. I knew that deep in my heart. I knew that something had to change & I knew that something had to be me. I had flown away from my abusive family, to live on the other side of the world. I had followed my spiritual calling. I was helping lots of people to heal. My heart was open. I was making a difference. I didn't know how I had manifested this again but I knew that I needed to find out so that I could release it. I didn't tell anyone about the first rape, there was nobody safe to tell. I told a couple of close friends about my second rape, but I had been to visit a court just weeks before it happened & I had witnessed the victim being abused even more in the court room. I knew that I could never do anything about it without even more pain inflicted on myself. But this time it was different, I knew that I would kill myself if it happened again, this time it was a matter of survival. I needed to tell someone who could do something about it. I needed to do something about it. I told the police. They had a counsellor contact me to help me through the next stages, it was the help that I needed all along. I would not recommend anyone go through the court process, unfortunately, it still is a terrible ordeal where you are abused again, only this time in a room full of people who should know better. The system is loaded to protect the perpetrator & to belittle the victim. But I would highly recommend the counselling because this is what I found: I had grown up in an abusive household of alcoholics. This made me accept abuse as normal. I had no capacity to discern a dangerous person from a safe person. I was open to anyone. I had no boundaries. Even the spiritual teachings I was following had me seeing the best in everyone & thinking that this would protect me. It didn't. I was taught life skills by my counsellor, she taught me what is acceptable, what isn't, she taught me how to take control of ongoing abusive relationships, how to have boundaries to protect my feelings, to protect myself. We did role playing so that it became my new normal. I had to unlearn a lifetime of being taught to accept everyone & everything, but with the right support I did it. The abusers that I had an ongoing relationship with were suddenly scared of my new empowered energy & they backed away out of my life, without even having to say the things that I had practised with my counsellor. It was working! Next I had to change my story. My story was one of the victim overcoming, of the phoenix rising. My story was all about healing from the old story. Even my business was all about that too. Yesterday my tattoo was finished, it's a phoenix. The time was right to have this reminder of the story that I have left behind. Because there has to be an end to it. There has to be a new story. A new story has to take its place for the healing to be completed. I am no longer living the story of the abused one who overcame, that story has ended now & they all lived happily ever after. I am now starting to live the story of an empowered woman starting her new life at age 47, with big dreams, unlimited potential, with strong boundaries, knowing what she wants, unwilling to accept anything less from anyone, addiction-free, a life of excellence, of the best. I know that the abuse won't happen again, because people have tried to abuse me recently & I have drawn up strong boundaries to them immediately. I now recognise those who aren't loving themselves & so who are capable of abuse, it shows obviously in addictions. When people show me who they are I believe them instantly now, I set my boundaries because I know that I deserve the best. I know that rape won't happen again because I am strong & no longer open to being abused. I know that I am free of this story now because I can deal with everyone random situation life throws at me with strength & empowerment. There are a few common tales being lived: The victim's tale is a terrible story, it's hard, it's depressing, it's not inspiring, it's like a bottomless pit. The medical drama tale is similar to the victims story, it's just a more specific tale of woe. The hero's tale (otherwise known as the Phoenix rising tale) is an interesting story, it's one that many choose, I chose it, it's dramatic, but the adversity is hard to take & you have a lot of healing to do from it. Although the healing leads to rewards which are great, there has to be an end to this story. The happily ever after tale is a different story, it's a new one, it is no longer about overcoming adversity, it is about a whole new creation. It's unique to you & what you want to experience. What would you like to come after the hero's tale? You are the writer & the director of your life. You can continue telling the old story or you can write a new one & choose who you want to play the parts in that new story. What story have you been living? What story would you like to live now? Share your old & your new story in the comments below ![]() I'm Claire Louise Hay, I help you claim your true power to manifest the life of your dreams through self-awareness and alignment with your higher self. Want to work with me? Click here to find out how! ![]() My morning routine doesn't stay the same, but it always has similar components to it depending on how I feel when I wake up. This morning this is exactly what I did: I woke up & went for a pee. It was 6am, I was still tired, so I put a guided meditation on my phone & went back to bed. An hour & a half later I made myself a coffee & I took the writing pad out of my bedside drawer. I wrote down my goals for the day, some goals for the month & some general things that I wanted to manifest. I listened to a 30 minute hypnosis, because my previous meditation had felt more like lie-in laziness, & I wanted to empower what I had just written down with my good vibes. I took a shower, put my bikini on, grabbed a banana & rode my bicycle down to a local juice bar for a fresh juice. After my juice I went to the pool, took this photo, had a swim, ate my banana, sunbathed during which I got 3 ideas of action to take toward those goals I had written down. I came back home, hung my bikini out to dry & got to work. This blog was one of the 3rd of those ideas, I already acted on the others., it's 11:33am right now. I feel amazing! This morning's routine is heavier than usual on the guided meditations, it doesn't involve as much exercise as usual because I'm recovering from yesterday evening's Muay Thai training, I will work out later today, it is focused on my work goals because I feel like working today. Some days I wake up & I feel energetic, my body wants to move & so I will do a shorter meditation, write down my goals & desires, throw my workout gear on & head to the gym. Usually while I'm on the treadmill I'll get the ideas for the actions to take that day, when I am fully in my body & not in my head. Whatever happens, however I feel, I try to write down what I want every morning. If I let this slip, my results stop happening. The rest is self-care, listening to my body, mind & soul. That self-care is important to fire up my energy to get those results that I have asked for, it's important because it makes me feel great, it makes me feel empowered, it makes me feel in control of my day, I get to be the director of my day! I have a pad that I can tear yesterdays page out of, I acknowledge what I achieved the day before then I scrunch it up & throw it in the bin. On my fresh page I write down is the number of customers that I want that day dependent on my energy levels & how I feel, & I write Thank you universe! If I have asked for 8 customers say, then I will write 1 to 8 in circles below, the after the number 8 write a star (this is for an extra celebration if I surpass my goals). Throughout the day I tick off the circled number, one by one & give thanks for them. Next I write down what I want to accomplish this month financially, again I write down the figure, sometimes 3 times, then I write Thank you universe! in order to surrender & hand my request over, rather than try to do it myself. Then I write down things that I want that haven't manifested yet, things like a new phone, an equal romantic partner, the number of new leads I want on my mailing list, fitness goals (I constantly challenge my body to being healthier, stronger, faster, better,... it's fun for me) I always write Thank you universe! after each request I don't think too much about it, I don't spend a lot of time doing it, in fact the less time I spend on it the better, because writing it down is about surrender & letting it go. It's a shopping list for the day from the universe, I don't need to memorise it, keep thinking about it, I have handed it over & can trust the universe to pop ideas into my head for the actions to take to make it all happen. Do you have write your goals down daily? Do you want to try it? Share in the comments below what your morning practice is & how it helps you ![]() I'm Claire Louise Hay, I help you claim your true power to manifest the life of your dreams through self-awareness and alignment with your higher self. Want to work with me? Click here to find out how! |
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