Coming from a negative, unaware and abusive family has it's upside.
Yes: you heard me right.
You see I could not have been even a tiny little piece of the healer that I am today if I hadn't had to heal myself in droves. This self-healing has given me the tools, the skills, the information and the desire to help others with their healing journeys.
As I healed those parts of me that had believed and accepted negative and abusive teaching, releasing it all and finding a new empowered and aware way of being in its place, I found that there was an emotional side of me that hadn't quite kept up. In other words, I had intellectually healed it all and chosen better for myself but a part of me still felt bad for having detached myself from my past and more importantly from the people in my past.
I found that I was still getting many repercussions from people in my past, being blamed for things, being put down, attacked,... I found myself constantly asking "Why am I still attracting this thing that I think I have healed?" I must have been doing it somehow, because I am a creator spirit who manifests everything that I experience, so why this ongoing issue?
Then I heard this "Guilt seeks punishment". It resonated straight away. I was feeling guilty for breaking tribe, for leaving people behind as I healed myself and moved forward. My guilt was causing ME to manifest PUNISHMENTS for myself from these people.
So to release this feeling of guilt I forgave myself. I know that my family and everyone in my past are at the right place on their own spiritual paths. They have been in my life to give me the lessons that I needed so that I could have this incredible urge and passion for healing, but it's not in their life path to heal themselves in the same way.
It's OK to leave them behind.
I don't need to feel guilty anymore.
I don't need to seek punishments for myself anymore!
I felt an instant emotional relief.
Then something incredible happened. My biggest punishment that I had created was released. My ex had been encouraging my children to ignore me and my eldest son decided it was time to stop all of this, he arranged a conversation and mediated it so that we could come to a better arrangement for the good of our children. I learned to accept him as he is and not expect him to bring my children up as I would, but honour that my children have also made a choice to receive lessons and experiences in their lives which will help them to grow into aware, healed and empowered individuals.
What are you feeling guilt about?
What are you seeking punishment for?
How are these punishments showing up in your life?
Would you like them to be released?
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