We were playing cards. I was consistently winning. My friend was consistently coming last. The game required a little skill, skill that he was applying, but still there was this glaring pattern of loss. I asked him "Don't you know how to win?" He replied "Yes, of course I know how to play!" I said "That's not what I asked. I asked do you know how to win? How to manifest a win?" This was his reply "You shouldn't use your spiritual gifts for your own personal gain or your gift will be taken from you."
I believed him.
I made this vow to the universe:
"I will use my gift to help the world but not for personal gain"
At that moment in time I had plenty of money. Within the next year all of my money slowly disappeared. I struggled ever since despite working for 14 years selflessly helping others.
I thought that I was doing what the universe was asking me, but the universe could not & would not bring me plenty of people to help, no matter how much I tried to grow my business or reach many. It kept telling me to get into balance, to receive to get what I wanted. So I focused on abundance & shifting my abundance issues consistently for 2 years now, there was so much crap within me about it!
Yet I had forgotten about this vow until yesterday when I was absent mindedly playing cards on my iPad & the memory drifted into my mind.
I released the vow by going to a mirror, looking myself in the eyes & telling my subconscious "I release the vow that I made to not use my gift for personal gain. I now make a vow to be the biggest, best, abundant being I can be. I allow myself to personally gain from my gift as I let the whole world gain from my gift."
I woke up this morning with a huge sense of relief. Suddenly my techy team managed to get the credit card payments working again on my website. Coincidence? Not likely. I received a call from a lady wanting to talk about giving me a grant for my business. First time ever.
My reward is being magnetised to me now that I have released the vow holding it away from me. I have 14 years of abundance from ceaseless work helping others coming to me right now & I welcome it. To my guides to have kept telling me "You won't even accept the reward for the work you have already done" - I am now, thanks for leading me through my money crap that was holding my spiritual mission back.
To all of those "spiritual" people (I put spiritual in ""'s because it is my experience that people who label themselves as spiritual really mean "damaged & hurting") who believe that money is bad, that you shouldn't get personal gain from your gifts or that selling out is going to the dark side, consider this:
Wishing lack, poverty & struggle on anyone, including yourself, is utter darkness.
Wishing abundance, wellbeing & plenty on everyone, including yourself, is sheer light.
It's attachment to anything that really holds you back.
Some people are attached to their possessions or money, it's true. But many many more people (I'd guesstimate about 97% of the world population) are attached to their belief in lack.
If you find yourself pointing your finger at anyone remember that there are 3 fingers pointing right back at you. What you judge in others is actually your attachment not theirs, you can & will never know what is going on inside a person, whether they are attached or not.
Did you also make this debilitating vow?
Did you have those dark beliefs in lack?
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