Breakthroughs are coming every day & I'm sharing them, not to replace your own meditation practice of knowing your true self, because these words can never replace that, but in case it helps you in any way at all.
Right now I'm in a place of seeming failure. You can read yesterday's blog here if you want to know all about that. What came back from that blog post was love, love from many people, love for me in my failure.
I say seeming failure because the ingredients of this particular kind of failure are the perfect fertile ground for simplifying my life, knowing myself better, redirecting myself, getting back on track, looking after myself, & taking a long soft look at myself in my daily meditations.
The love that came back to me from that blog post about my failure was calling me, I asked myself what is this calling from me, the answer came right away: to love myself in failure.
I am not my success. I am not my failure.
I am not my wealth. I am not my poverty.
I am the awareness that is experiencing EVERYTHING.
And wow this experience of poverty right now is bringing me so many gifts.
I realised that I took my parents lead by loving myself only when I was successful. Even though I have shared my hard times in this blog, so I had the courage to be vulnerable in my failures, I wasn't loving myself in that place. I was trying to fix myself. I was waiting to get back to success so that I could love myself again.
I uncovered so many "shoulds" in this mornings meditation. You know the ones.
I should have a house & savings at my age!
My business should be successful.
I shouldn't have to spend my savings.
It shouldn't be this hard.
I should be successful by now.
All of these beliefs & more were standing in the way of me loving myself no matter what my external circumstances are, because they are not me, I am the presence that is there throughout it all.
I have been so hard on myself. So this long soft look at myself in meditation every morning is exactly what I needed to see through my mean ego's judgments of me. Loving myself in failure was easy when I realised what I had been doing to myself.
So now I welcome it all, success or failure, both will come with gifts & challenges, with lessons & joy.
& money started magically showing up again as soon as I reached this point.
I invite you to watch my daily meditation video's by clicking here & I hope to inspire you to join me in this practice of the long soft look at yourself every day.